i must sleep early tonight

oh well. did i mention that im suppose to get my pay today?

and NOPE. i didnt get it. "oh.. i am at shangri la hotel now.." ---> his excuse.

fine.

tml salim's coming. if he doesnt pay me before he comes, i am going to tell salim.

AND tell him the junk that i did for the company. HAd to freaking clear up that bunch of rubbish that the production caused. im not a cleaner. fine.

2 more weeks. 11 more working days.

i just cant wait to go back to school.

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duh duh duh duh. fuck the hottie weather

it's so so freaking hot lar.

missy menses is LATE this month again. -.-"

got my new phone with mama on sunday. $123. so coincidental right.

13 more days left to END of attachment. im so happy. just in case you dunno wad i went through.. i've went through alot. more of bad then good.

take my pay for example. i've to date, only received.. $350. my one month's pay is SUPPOSEDLY to be $1000+. so.. wad's my boss doing?

next. he is such a WAYANG king.. upon knowing my lecturer's visiting me on thurs, he had the walls painted and everything packed. dumb.

next. he actually pretended NOTHING happened. and i've to chase my pay. no initiative.

next. for the countless OT that i have SACRIFICED for the fucking company, im not paid. fine. say im money face.. but it's NOT as if my OT is because im LEARNING something from him OR i cant finish my work. it's mostly HIS fault. he comes back at 6pm(time when im suppose to go home) and ask me to finish up something. dumb.

next. and my efforts are nevertheless, NOT recognised. and i've got "B"s for my hardwork. well, he deserve nothing more than just a merely $6 per hour effort.

next. Design is never in his mind. he just wants Cheap and more Cheap. BEST is free. Thats why, where's my design fee that he collected from my client? cheater.

next. and besides that miserable design work that im suppose to do, he dumps invoices, quotations, delivery orders and im suppose to PACK that fucking disgustingly dirty office. obviously, im not such an angel. from wad i see, u deserve to be in the bin.

oh well, im such a grumpy queen right? no doubt. try sitting in my seat. you'll vomit.

he pretends well and acts well. call me his "sister". ya.. i think im the poorest "sister".

probably, perceptions are always different. ya.. 13 days. i cant wait. i cant wait to take that sisterly mask off my face.

even if im ON the dot today, i've been released late. so wad's the point of being on the dot?

i find that he's the lousiest boss i have met.

another next. i've gotten his a semi big client for him. with big budgets. before i got the client, he said he'll give me alil more allowance. oh well. i was TOO naive.

Finally, i dun feel that im being APPRECIATED. even dogs need a pat on their head when they fetch something. even teachers get alil bonus whenever year ends or perfomance is good. so wad do i get?

im just being practical. who likes to have their pay being DRAGGED by weeks? people are already gonna get their second month's pay. i was so dumb to believe my boss. dumb.

there's this new colleague that joined me today. pretty nice. but i dunno wad should i say to her. cos i feel alil guilty. it might not be as bad as this. but i feel tat im being used. im a designer cum sales person cum admin cum cleaner cum production worker.

even worker needs money to eat and go on right? EVEN the banglahs at the workshop gets their pay. LIAR.

enough of grumps.

=) thirteen more days~~~

ok.. tml is my first time teaching tuition. dun puke hor! i know im a lousy student in school. but with my mouth, i believe i can produce the BEST students. hehe! well.. why tuition? cos it's pretty stable kinda part time job and very flexible too. i would prefer to give tuition that being a promoter or something. cos i just hate to stand for long hours. making my trotters look even more like trotters! haha! moreover, it's pretty near my home.

*but i dun have a red pen? haha! will get one soon.

hope the parents will have a good impression of me.

went dinner with boy. wanted to watch hearty paws. but the queue was so long and it was such a turn off. so.. headed for cafe cartel instead. pretty cheap.

then we went to search for his younger sis's bday present. her birthday COINCIDENTALLY falls on my shopping friday! wth.

oh ya.. had mahjong session on fri night. ok.. i lost. boy won 3 of us. but i lose the LEAST ok! see.. im getting BETTER liao lor! im gonna win next time ok!

i feel the strain in my eyes. thou shall go for a shower and sleep.

the battle STARTS on 0900 tml morning. duhz. it's just a sister mask on my face. =\

no more expo!

oh right. one more day till my off days!

im so so tired man~!!! cant wake up today! but was forced.. cos my bladder could not make it.. had to go wee wee.. and i just feel like going back to bed!

boss went out. so im all alone. and the youngest brother is still sleeping! damn!

i also wanna sleep.

Friday Blues

Today's Friday. But I am not at all happy. Instead, I am having Friday Blues. Why? Cos I have to be at Expo for 3 days at least - Sat, Sun and Mon. However, the good news is... I can have 2 days off. So I have chosen Thurs and Fri. Super long weekend awaits! =)

I just cant wait for the crabbie dinner later. Cant wait to see boy.. cant wait to go home and sleep. another 6.5 more hours to go. Actually, working here is much better than any other sales job. Why? Because time passes super quickly. Esp after 2pm. Cos my boss will ask me to do this and that.

Oh ya.. Guess wad time did i reach work today? whooping.. 10.30! haha~! wad time does it start? 9am.. i have no choice. was dead tired man. and i couldnt wake up. my phone sounded like some nostalgic kinda music.. so soothing.. puts me in DEEP sleep(TROUBLE).

It's too bad.

Yesterday i was at sentosa. NOT SUNTANNING OR BEACHING. but helping to "see" a setup done. it was at emerald pavilion.. which is just RIGHT beside Cafe Del Ma.. torture. it was a real torture to see people suntanning while i'm "basking" under the sun seeing the peeps doing some setup. tedious work.

SO so so.. blogging at work again.. man. my eyes are so so tired.

blogging @ work

everybuttie is out for LUNCH!!

and im having my lunch here alone.. subway : honey oat, italian bmt, warmed in oven, lettuce and tomatoes, honey mustard and pepper.. bought the footlong.. sharing with my boss. 8 bucks gone!

sad news for this week.. i think it's the saddest of all. i'm suppose to be at the exhibition during the weekends! coordinator.. damn! burn my weekends nvm.. my pay is still so miserable.. i can earn 8 bucks per hour during weekends. BUT i think this time round.. no 8 bucks.. only 6 bucks...

today when i went to work.. the phone and email was not working... tot spoilt or wad. but it was actually my boss who didnt pay his bills! the fax machine was cut off earlier on.. but he's going to pay in the noon..

just finish designing an invitation card for LGFC. Think it looks really simple. but i've done my best. i hate football. i hate all the football clubs. BORING! anyway.. done with it.. boss said it was URGENT.. yet he's not back yet.

in this company.. i feel stuck. you noe why? cos this person tells u one thing and the other tells u another thing. am i suppose to take my initiative or follow orders? in this case.. i prefer to follow orders. come on.. it's an exhibition. it's not a design whereby u need not follow wad's out there. wadever goes wrong.. i'll be scolded by the client and the company will lose money. so wad am i expected to do right? follow orders will be the best. of course.. i'll add in some initiative. but then again.. both peeps above me have different thinking. =( im being sandwiched.

i need a break. have a kit kat.

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should i get that polo mini bag? ouch.

tml's WORKING day again.. sian.. have to go to simei and stand for 7 hours. =( i kinda regretted agreeing to work for this assignment. but then again.. looking at the rate im spending my moolah? i think i have to! haha! and mummy's doing my financial planning for me. am supposed to save money for some monthly payment thingy. oh well.. that means i have to work doubly hard for my present and future!

once again, i quarrelled with him. he said i got stinky attitude. i said that he has absolutely zero EQ and common sense. sounds harsh right? but i really find that's the fact. am not going to change it. when i logged on to msn just now.. i flew to a rage. omg. he actually continue typing despite me being offline last night? and said something MORE abt my attitude and all that. oh well. then fine. go get a girl with a better attitude, not a violent one and a slimmer and sexier one who's more stupid than me and not petty at all.

i really love the polo bag.. small one costs 40 bucks and the pretty big one costs 60 bucks. if i wan BOTh of them.. i have to pay hundred bucks. and im gonna get it. u noe why? cos im pissed off.. and when girls are pissed off.. they turn into RETAIL therapy.

dinner break at 5 tml.. man. im gonna be eating alone and alone and alone. i just hate to work as a promoter. MONEY MONEY MONEY!

it's SHAKING

haha!! im in office now.. as usual.. was late this morning...

it was shaking just now!! the building was SHAKING. giddy sia! i tot my office going to collaspe anytime soon. oh man..

it's been some time since i've updated my blog. simply because im too tired. everyday seems so tedious for me. work ends late almost every single day. i noe im grumbling again. but how not to? i just wonder how am i going to survive next time when im out into the work force. think i have to choose the easy way out. slim down and do freelance model projects. fast money i should say!

everyday is beehoon day. im going nuts!