officially sick

i just realised that i am not young anymore.

went to school yesterday and reached at 9am. surprising right? it's been a long time since i've reached school early. but the actual fact was.. i'm suppose to meet sarah to collect something before school starts. how to be late like that?

however, when i woke up, i felt fucking sick. bad headache making my head spin and my throat was in great pain.. my nose was STUCK and stuffy as usual.

talked to huei about my ideas and as usual, it lacks of something. rejected. my mood sank lower and realised that i cant take it anymore.. i took a cab to the doctor.

and thinking that the doc could give me a miracle remedy that will allow me to recover in a day.. i paid my 32 bucks and walked home.

it's one day. took 3 times of medicine. and instead of feeling better.. it got worse. tonight before i sleep i must put a bottle of water beside me. just in case i feel thirsty.

sick

shit

i'm sick for the 3rd day.

flu plus sore throat. swallowing saliva seems to be the most painful action to do now.

and i just realised that when i'm sick.. my brain gets cranky. i start to talk like a duck with short tongue. maybe my brain is smart enough to "conserve" energy? haha!

suppose to think about my ad now. but i'm tired. i just dun feel like doing anything but surfing around aimlessly. i think i'm at the rock bottom of the class now in terms of progress.

dieded.

CHOICES?

i find it WEIRD. funny. wadever.

choices have consequences.

but. are we given the chance to choose wad we want?

yes. but then, the consequence is.. you've got to tolerate some others NONSENSE and shit.

fuck.

it's pretty crappy. reluctant so wad? why make it sound as if I AM NEEDED to be there when i've already sort of know how to get about doing it?

if i'm fucking free and healthy, i dun mind going.

mind you. i'm having headaches the whole freaking day and FLU. bad flu. said that i'm sick. but instead of concern and wadever, i'm being persuaded to attend. and please dont feel pissed off!

and i find myself being a hypocrite. someone who's fucking fake. someone who's a COWARD and dare not TELL THE person STRAIGHT in the face that I FUCKING DONT WANNA GO. and someone who hides behind the screen typing this away. venting my anger.

but i've decided to go. just in case i get comments about my attitude or wadever. i dun like it if ppl say that i'm slacking my arse off. and I AM DEFINITELY NOT,FUCKER!

ya. consolation. i won mahjong. yes!

all i want for christmas is..

1) Blackberry/Sony Ericsson P1i
2) Pretty Watch
3) Mu's Belt plus Skirt
4) Wii~~
5) Smelly to love me more! hehe!

I am a greedy pig. but smelly.. you said 5 right~ haha!

ill discipline!

I know I in great trouble.

I SMELL IT. haha!

for the past 2 weeks.. or rather ever since the interim presentation.. I HAVE NOT TOUCHED a SINGLE THING. dead.

sigh. laziness is the illness.

the cure? not sure. i just NEED to KICK myself in my ass. pull up my stinky socks. and work. but everytime i on the computer.. i'm flooded with games, blogs and blah blah blah. =(

ill discipline lar.

huei is coming back on FRIDAY. and i've to do SOMETHING to show her else she's going to poke me. haha!

chiong tv first. paint my nails first. sleep first. play first. then do! haha! =)

life's like that. take it easy. i love my life now!

i cant wait for mahjong session. hopefully jl will be free on FRIDAY. i wanna mahjong lar!

Patience

you've changed. for sure. bet your patience is running out.

you are tired. i am equally tired too.

but what am i suppose to do when i just feel this way?

and you still can ask me "what do you want me to do?"

nothing.

on a lighter note.. really happy to talk to germaine at mos for like.. let me think... near 3 hours? hehe!

and i bought this....

cute right?? he's mos burger kun.. germaine bought the rice one.. and i super love the tomato one also!! but one set meal only can have one.. =(

i'm like super sleepy now. and i think i'm in deep shit. huei wants me to prepare some stuff. and i'm suppose to give her really soon. BUT.. i cant. cos the things are in school. and i guess i'll prolly have to WAKE up early tml to get it printed out again! shit.