HUNGRY + LAZY = HOPELESS

ok lar. obvious right.. i'm hungry now and i'm lazy to wear my.. AHEM.. to go down to buy lunch. so i'm like STARVING. but can save money also.

staying at home is SO BORING. i think i'm better off working lehz! but i dun really feel like moving cos i'm so so nua. i love to wake up in the afternoons. i love to nua on my bed till i really cannot stand it liaoz.. must go toilet and pee. that's me! haha! i'm sure everyone will also do the same lor! GUILTY lehz!!! haha!!!

nothing much to blog about. my boy said that my blog is BORING. yes. it's BORING. so i shall add a picture to spice up. haha!
















CHIO??? SO PREWWWTY!!!

happy belated birthday to me!!!

wahaha! ok. first of all... i would like to thank... *BREATHES* wanru, yongda, zanjun, ping ping, valentia, ken, jovan, leying and.. anymore? oops.. i forgot liaoz! next time must write name on a card! haha! ok.. thanks for the perfume! it's really pretty and i love the free gifts that came with it!! love love~~

this year's wish is prolly to have a smooth sailing journey in uni. that's all. i've got everything and anything while i was working part time. so nothing much except for a camera which is coming into singapore in september and a laptop for school which i do not think i need it really urgently unless my desktop breaks down*touch wood*. and maybe when i grow older it'll be a dream car and dream house. that's all? but what i've stated are those that i do not really need. so.. it's not that important. i'm happy with what i've now! life couldn't be better. i am very fortunate to have my friends and family and last but not least.. just in case he gets jealous.. MY BOY. HAPPY BO!! you see your name here! MR TAN WEI RONG!! always complaining that i do not mention you in my blog when it comes to happy things. damn you lar~~

the 6 of us went to MOF at marina square for lunch. and i must say.. it was awesome! i loved the cake most! plus the mango desert!! yummy!! it's 2 big candles now. sian! I WANT TO BE FOREVER 18 can~~ gossips plus more gossips. the hair, the positions, the girls.. haha! and if anyone of you is reading this.. please remind YONGDA that his mouth should not utter a single word about the outing.. highly dangerous! haha! wad's the milk ad again?(OOPS!) ok lar.. i'm so bad and mean... i ought to keep my mouth shut! but these are all for entertainment purposes.. most of the gossips i've mentioned can be found online. shan't spread around as i think if i'm the one involved and i see people spreading around malicious rumors, i'll prolly go berserk for sure! but the lust caution is real one lar! the girl really never shave armpit! confirm guarantee chop! i saw that big bush lehz! oops..

on the actual day, boy brought me to eat at NO SIGNBOARD restaurant! he says that it's a black restaurant! haha! hei tian. cos very expensive. we asked for their set for 2 and it's a whooping.. $174. haha! inclusive of GST plus SERVICE CHARGE which sums up to a meal of ding tai feng. but overall, i must say that i really loved every bit of it! except.. maybe for the garlic veggie. didnt like it though veggies are good for health! the lobster salad was FATABULOUS.. haha! super love love love lehz. the crabs were good too.. yummy!! the sharks fin soup was nice also. though i don't really know how to appreciate! the desert was SO SO only.. i think red star restaurant is much much better! =) i smiled while sleeping because the lobster is still swimming in my tummy! haha!!

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i find sometimes life is pretty contradicting. when one is too direct to others, they don't like. then talk behind their backs, they don't like. then like that how? blog lor. but blog they also reading. so stuck hor? so ended up what i did was to set up another blog to write about the DARKEST SECRETS/GOSSIPS in my life that i do not want myself to be the enemy of others. super childish. but i ish bth. everytime i feel like blogging about some friends of mine.. i'll think twice.. cos if i'm the victim and i happen to stumble upon the blog.. i'll prolly feel really upset.

yesterday i couldnt get to sleep because i was thinking about my friends and the past. prolly after i've blogged this out.. i'm not going to think about it anymore. =) looking ahead seems better and is a must if i want to improve. i was during my sec days very disappointed with a few friends of mine. because they chose to believe what others had said and not me. i do not blame them cause it's their ears and their choice too. however, deep down, i felt as if i was a lousy person to be with. maybe just not everyone is fated to be in my life and stay there as a BFF. i happen to think about this because on saturday.. i talked to my friends about the rumors i've heard about this girl online and i tot it was pretty bad for me to say such things. aren't i further spreading such rumors. ok. i'm guilty. though it's for entertainment sake but i still think that it's bad. and i'm not going to do such things anymore cos i felt as if it happened to me in sec school. malicious rumors causes people's pride to go really down. i'm really lucky that those whom believed the others but not me are less than a handful but till now, i didn't do anything revengeful cos i was thinking why the need? sometimes i think, why must people create trouble for other even though he/she has nothing to do with them. life still goes on without or with others. and it is true that those who talk bad about you are those who do not EVEN know you personally or rather.. they heard from this person/that person. =) it has been a bag of worries that i've placed in my heart and i've put it away. i don't think i can forget about it but i'm moving on without it.

*smile* MY gossips are only for entertainment sake and please do not take it seriously my friends!! =)

ti-rum-mi-su

i was craving for it badly last evening and decided to make a special request to my boy when he asked me what i wanted to have for dinner/supper. craves.. initially, it was prune juice from geylang and dim sum too. however, he gave many excuses/reasons and ended up with a nice tirumisu from tcc, allswell starfruit juice and female magazine. =) we are fine now. haha!

ok. suppose to write something about gossip but i'm just not in the mood. wanted to go for facial and mani pedi but the weather was freaking horrible! raining cats and dogs. but it was good. i slept and slept. haha! wee~ the bad thing about not working is that weekends and holidays just don't excite me anymore! it's just another ordinary day afterall. duhz.

i'm still craving for my prune juice.

it's 4.01pm

ok. i just woke up 2 hours ago..

checked my email and isetan actually emailed me to come down for an interview for the event coordinator position. oh wells, too late. i've already decided to get my degree first before anything. or was the decision so wrong?

i remembered when i was young, i made the fastest decisions especially when it comes to academics. of course one would go for the top class right? who will want to go to the bottom ones? nobody! straightforward decision. then.. when i was choosing which course to go for poly, i actually chose design related ones because i was quite into design and basically i love to do alot of hands-on stuff! i sort of enjoyed the whole 3 years except for certain really crappy modules. but it was a dead end, i just realised.

finding jobs were hard. especially when i'm someone who dislikes to do one thing only. i tot of having design work with marketing will be fun. to my horror.. there are only a few jobs for designers and most of them are much lowly paid than a sales executive. though working hours are more or less the same. passion worths this much? i think i'm just a money face. who do not work for money in singapore? every single thing is MONEY lor!

and the worse thing that can happen is that, i can't go into local uni with this dip and such results. actually, i think if i were to study something design related, maybe it's possible. but when i wanna drive over to business(cos it's all about money) and finance, it was zero chance.

i wondered... whether it was just a wrong choice or a right choice at the beginning.

i applied and got into SIM in the first place. pondering, i decided to find a job. couldn't get a nice one that i really like.. or the reply email was just not in time... i decided to go for psb academy which offers the same degree in SIM. just that it's much much nearer to my home and there's not a need to pay for shitty entrance fee! BUT, i just realised that it's the first year that the school's offering this full time. guinea pig lar. nvm. i'll just have to pia like shit.

in life, we have choices. but choices have consequences. sometimes, i don't really think that we've choices to start with in the first place. it's deep down.

i tot of a topic for my next blog's post - gossip.

haha! i think it's what i do with my friends most of the time. =)

next. oh boy, i quarreled with my boy AGAIN. this time round, i'm just so pissed off with him that i actually didn't want to talk to him for many many days. cos his attitude just sucks. sucks as in - he can give all sort of excuses, dumps me away when i'm pissed off because of him, show me lots of attitude even if he's in the wrong! he uses phrases like "mind you!", asking me questions like "how do you feel when someone just dun answer your calls?". i just felt so irritated because he's in the wrong and for god sake, he can even give me this kinda sucky attitude and say "just move on" and "forget about it". and if YOU are reading this, i'm SO SORRY that i CANNOT move on because I HAVE NOT FORGIVEN YOU because YOUR ATTITUDE JUST SUCKS BIG TIME! you think this is such a small matter, but it's not. because i can't accept a boyfriend that just shoves off and think he could get away so easily. put it simply, your apology came in too late and you just dun give a damn about me. that's all. your sms-es and calls just came in too late. i've given you chances and chances. DAYS in fact and you didn't even bother. if you can just live without me for the fucking few days, so be it! you've always waited for me to stick on to you. and i'm telling you this now, i'm so so tired of doing this! calling you and you dun even bother to call me! you love to sleep, watch your tv, play your soccer game and you dun even bother to call back after doing finish your stuff! you love to have time for yourself, you'll have it all to yourself from now on then. and no, i'm not treating you like an idiot. cos i could not even be bothered to entertain some horrible egoistic person.

why is my family like that?

night packing

last night, i had this URGE to... pack my stuff! haha!

i found pretty old stuff that i had "dumped" in my drawers for years!

i found out quite abit about myself when i was packing;

i love to buy stationary - i've got a whole BASKET of pens, highlighters(esp yellow), PENCILS(ikea, school of design), erasers, colour pens(kept them since primary school!) etc!

i love to buy accessories - but i dun wear 70% of them, they tarnished and off they went.. to the BIG BAG! - tons of bugis village 3 for $5 earrings, flea 3 for $10 earrings, necklaces from online sites.. etc!

i love to collect perfume maniatures - mum and i bargained for them when we buy perfumes! cheapo us! but we love it! it's free wad! =) didnt dump them.. kept them.. cute bottles!

i love to buy papers - got them for project work and now i've got plenty of different texture papers. sigh. no place to put liaoz!

i love to buy clothes - threw a big red bag of clothes this morning. 50% of them were not worn AT ALL! can u imagine.. sigh! so wasted. but they are OUT-DATED liaoz.. how to wear?!

now my table is all neat and nice! haha! finally. and i mean finally! been wanting to pack for MONTHS or YEARS but didnt have the mood.

finally,

2 boxes of clothes that i didnt touch since 2 years back became 1 box only. that one box is under probation. if next year i don't wear any of them.. they'll be OUT of my house. haha! heartpain. lots of mango tops and jacket and those ex ex ones! sigh! i could actually remember where i bought them! haha! wonder what are my brains for! hehe! and i've got more space to put my precious bags rather than dumping them in! poor thing!

my table is clean now.

my 2 big drawers that were once pull-out-got-thing-sure-fall-out state became neat and nicely packed. though it's like FULL to the brim. found out that i actually had alot of my friends dvd's or vcd's with me! oops! and it's like years~

my stationary drawer is neat also! =) manage to keep most of the useful things out of my desk as i hate it when people do not buy their own stuff and lend it from me. and yes, i'm selfish! oops=x but then again.. i worked for the money to buy my own art materials. think one should really get their own stuff and not rely on others continuously. poof.

going to..

buy some hooks for the cardboard to put my belts etc.

not waste money on stationary anymore. i reckon i've got enough of them for the next 3 years.

not waste money and accessories, keychains, ornaments etc. it's taking up TOO MUCH space and collecting dust.

think that's about it.

random note...

sometimes i think one should leave an empty road for others to go and not push them to the wall. sometimes, it's just good to give people a chance.
=)

anyone wants the maya books? selling them off cheap. pristine condition! cos i've never really read them at all! oops!

hmmm..

ook. i think i'm going back to school. haha! though i really hate the thought of getting a degree in a private institute.. but i still think a degree is still a degree right? beggars can't be choosers! how true.

been actively playing my ds. it's so wonderful. i just think i'm like a big fat worm at home. ok. i'm bored.

side notes..

i particularly dislike some ppl who pokes HIS nose into a conversation. i truly can't think of what are the "advantages" of having such ppl in my family. yucks. if i'm a lazy big fat worm.. i think he's a times ten kinda worm. i just think that maybe he should just keep his mouth shut. after all, nothing good comes out from his mouth! these ppl are here again to spice up my life. ya. in a wrong way. yucks x 10. had this urge to blog this down and today is the day. haha!

mum has been nagging at me to pack my stuff. sigh. give me a break!

sometimes i really hate to be at home! she's been asking me to do this and that. SAYING THAT SINCE I'M AT HOME, CAN DO RIGHT? but her precious son does nothing also except for going for his duty, playing his comp games.. why not him? so fair huh! and how irritating is it for him to on the music so loud in the day and plays his game till after midnight with the volume on? so disturbing! sleeping at home is machiam like sleeping in a battlefield. double yucks!

no more rants! cos i won't be happier after i rant right? back to happy things!

went school yesterday to collect my rotting diploma with zj and ru. it's been quite sometime we didn't see each other! hehe! really nice to eat in school with them! at least i love their companionship! =)

random note.. some people just don't seem to realize the problem actually lies with themselves and not others! =x

old man

i think some ppl just don't understand others! and they are hypocrites. shall look on the good side of them. at least they are the ones that really poke me in the ass to work harder!

a change. clean.

i've changed my blogskin. it's feeling much cleaner and tidier than before. hated the previous one.. but i just didnt make the effort to change it earlier.. plain lazy.

many things have yet to be done..

washing of new clothes. packing of clothes cardboard. packing of room. etc!

i'm still finding a job. haha~! been slacking for close to a month! but i'm loving most of the time at home. nua-ing.

=) fresh start!