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im not asleep yet.

something happened. a quarrel. hate it.

problem: he feels that he's not happy doing certain things, but becos of me, he DID them

my stand: not happy then dun do? I HAVE NV EVER FORCE HIM TO DO ANYTHING!

his stand: he needs me to noe and stand by him every now and then

minor prob: he says my language usuage is hurting

my stand: how many FUCKS are there in my blog? how many HATEs are there in my blog? and sometimes it get really on my nerves

next prob: he msg-ed me a break up sms

his stand: becos he's angry

my stand: angry then can anyhow break up?

he's hurt? and im hurt too? he said that he just wanted me to know that he's not happy doing things that i ask him to do or i want to do? i wonder.. if he's so unhappy then dun do it LAR? it's not as if i force him or something.. cheebye.

he keeps cutting into my sentences? and then i was so pissed that i said " i fucking hate to talk to you" and i really mean it? i just hate ppl who cut into my sentences.

u've been saying lots of stupid stuff these days. i mean real STUPID? but this didnt bother me. it's the point where u drag my mum in and stuff? damn it. i didnt even say ur mum and u started saying my mum? i noe it sounds childish. but wad if i say that ur mum is a fucking cheebye bitch? and then i add on " just kidding nia ". u like it?

after this incident, i called u after my tv programme and u said u wanted to watch tv, FINE. i let u watch ur tv. DUN complain to me that im depriving u of ur sleep. dun complain that u have been feeling tired and stuff. it's ALL ur own doing. u choose to watch tv and call me back late. OBVIOUSLY, u'll be tired the next day.

and for ur BELLY, if u dun wanna jog is ur own FUCKING business. wait till u DIE of heart related diseases, dun come crying to me. grow fat for all i care and i wont give a damn.

continue to speak ur D7 english and next time when u face problems phrasing or talking PROPER english to ur potential clients and stuff, BLAME ur CCK sec sch for it ok?

if u are TIRED and dun feel like returning my books, DUN? i didnt even PUSH u for this and now u tell me that u are unhappy doing it after a long and tiring day?

next time, no mahjong for me with ur pals, i rather play with my friends than urs. go and PLAY with ur friends instead.

why must we be together when u are so fucking unhappy with wad u are doing? then wad do u expect me to do? tell me such things and then quarrel? and u said that we arent quarrelling. fuck manz.

i wonder if a relationship has so many problems, then why carry on? if u are so UNHAPPY, why be with me? go be with other girls that can CHANGE for u?

u expect me to change for u, arent u fucking selfish? JANE comes in this original package, NO editions or anything! if u wan me to change, then i'll jolly well leave. humans are that selfish uh. changing people to suit themselves.

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job's been ok~ just soome knitty lil prob in the morning...

yawns.. i just love the fragrance from moschino!! really wanna get it manz.. but i love the sweet sweet one from another brand too~ sigh!! *hint* hehe!!

went pool with boy and accompany on saturday... sun was working day.. after that.. pat joined me and boy at taka and we tried many many fragrances.. and i missed that promotion.. it's 1 for 1 promo.. and both fragrances are my fav.. =(

going for job hunting at bugis tml.. and i've got to wake up at 5.30am everyday till fri~ damn tiring can.. but for the pay.. i just need the money.. haha!!

going to bed real soonz.. have to travel up to amk tml to meet them before going down to temasek poly..

love the ppl there.. it's a youthful and energetic group!! *smiles*

1329

just went for the briefing cum interview this morning..

everything went on smoothly and i got the JOB!! haha! next mon to fri... every morning.. i'll be working?? from 7.30 to 11.30am!!! damn shiok right? after that can go out and find other job meanwhile.. and the pay is.. HIGH!! i mean.. high for me~~ 32 bucks per session..

initially.. tml there's also one session at boonlay.. but to save all that fuck crap.. i gave it to germaine...

and here's the fucking pissing ass problems that i met with just now..

morning.. she's late.. the thing starts at 10am.. and she reached at 10am at the mrt..supposedly.. we were suppose to meet at 9.30.. not to spoil everybody's mood, i kept quiet.. and decided not to say anything abt it nor ask also... and further more.. i was late for 15 mins also~ >_>

then.. during the brief.. we were told that only one of us will be needed for tml's event.. and there goes.. both of us anything anything.. and then.. i gave her the assignment instead..

ok... not trying to be angel or anything.. but then.. PLEASE.. it's like.. if both of us carry on the "anything lor" thingy right.. i think the organizer will also get pissed..

mummy said by right i should take the event tml... cos im the one who introduced her the job so i should get it..

and out of courtesy.. cant she just thank me or something? i feel like im being fucking dumb! dumb to intro ppl jobs and then giving ppl extra stuff and all and best of all.. i dun get a word of thanx in return?

and after the brief.. she went for another interview i think? at raffles city? and she didnt fucking ask me? wah laoz~ im damn pissed lehz! wtf! tot friends should HELP each other? i was wrong..

my mood changed upon hearing the "can i come down now for the interview?"...

she mentioned to me abt the IT fair thingy.. but then she didnt ASK me! fucking basket... and i took the fucking initiative to ask the organizer if he needs ppl... just being dumb!

and then.. she sort of quarrelled with her mum on the phone and stuff.. she didnt even care abt me being beside her.. i walked to the next cabin's door instead.. i feel stupid.. i feel so stupid..

FUCK!

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damn.. im freaking hungry and nua~~ lazy jane just hates to wear her bra and change to some better cloths just to go downstairs to buy her favourite MIAN FEN GUO~

ok.. after reading so many ppl's blogs.. realised that most of them are finding jobs!! and wad abt me?? haha! nua-ing at home lorz~

mum sent my mp3 for repair.. and charges came up to 133 bucks!! i told her to take the mp3 back and dun need to repair since it's so EXPENSIVE~ prolly will persuade my boy to get me the vplus!! hehe~~

think i'll cook maggie for lunch today.. no money.. dun wanna draw out from boy's card... 3 more hours before i get to see him!! im so freaking excited!!

and i wanna tell peeps out there that.. IVE GOT PRETTY NAILS~ haha!! went mani 2 days ago.. and the colour is still so lasting.. 3 more weeks to go before i go for my mani and pedi~~ im a lil princess.. hehe!

and i've yet to return my library books~

i just NEED a job~ and peeps.. just an advice from an experience worker - jane - hehe!! if those hunters out there say something about.. marketting and such stuff.. DO NOT GO!! esp if the place is located at shenton or somewhere at raffles place.. u'll regret it manz! it's gonna be 99% mlm kinda job.. but then again.. u can choose to go and let me noe if there's that GOOD lobang around yeah? hehe!

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gosh.. i haven render that maya yet.. and i'm suppose to hand in to him by tml by putting it inside his letter box! im in great shit.. should i or should i not go to school tml for the briefing? if i go, i can hand in my maya and go for the briefting.. if i DUN, i can wear my pretty polka dots and red shoes! should i?? BAHZ!!!

ok.. report on my facials sessions~ hehe! im HIAO and got lots of time to waste.. so i went for 2 consecutive facials for wed and thurs.. BOO! better choice to go there and relax instead of staying at home and nua right? hhee!!

bfm.. loves the massage, the cooling masks.. for amore.. loves their.. painless extractions and youthful people? i kinda love amore more than bfm.. simply because they arent pushy?? but then again, it's all abt money.. will definitely go back to amore.. maybe for bfm.. their eye treatmeant ROCKS~ but it's a tad too expensive.. loves their bed also!! can climb up~~ slurps!!

im gonna eat tom yum mian fen guo tml!!! love it to the MAX! it's just the right spice level that i need! haha! think boy will be sticking his tongue out the moment he tastes the spiciness of the soup~ hehe!!

went for a mini job hunt session with germaine and siang yee.. it's been years since i last saw her..

went to eat lemon grass with them.. and then i want to tell all peeps here.. DUN GO THERE FOR DINNER.. WASTE MONEY!! only their tomyum seafood is nice.. the rest.. yuckie!! go sambawang's restaurant is definitely better.. and i paid like.. $21 for my share only.. damn ex and not worth it~

sambawang's has the nicest pineapple rice and the nicest crabs~~ slurps!! gonna eat it on sunday with boy!! hehe!!

and i've got like a briefing on saturday.. followed by workshop on sunday.. then.. mon to fri is job job job~ sigh!! but no choice.. i need the moolah!! hehe~~

gonna sleep.. it's half past three now... zzz~~ im sleeping~~~~

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im sleeping soon.. sick.. FLU!! gosh.. headache also.. my head FEELS so stuffy...

went shopping with dear this afternoon.. and surprisingly, i didnt buy anything at all!! BOOP! went home empty handed.. but boy's sponsoring me for a manicure tml!! yeah~~

so.. tml im going manicure with germaine.. gonna shop and hunt at far east till my boy meets me and then.. there goes his moolah!! hehe~~

i've got so many things to do... i've yet to render the maya thingy, pack my table, go for my facial, keep my bags, pack my closet(this is TOUGH), wash my clothes and stuff... bahz.. im so lazy.. and last of all.. i've yet to find a JOB?? anyone got lobang??hehe~ i just need a job manz.. or else i'll spend and spend like nobody's business.. then i'll go broke.. then i'll sit there crying for help..

im going to bed soon~ before that. hehe.. im gonna play CAKE MANIA~ damn cute can.. =)

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boop.. i think im growing HORIZONTALLY advanced... gosh!!

yup.. and i quarrelled with my boy again.. =( fuck manz~ can u imagine.. a boy who just cannot hear my 10+++++ calls in the afternoon? and he's supposed to go shopping with me today? and he woke up at this bloody time of 5+pm.. wad's there to shop liaoz? by the time we reach bugis.. it'll be 6+.. eat all that.. 7++.. ok.. 2 hours for my shopping.. fucking unfair..

i wonder wad's wrong with him.. he said that he called me at 2.30.. and apparently.. my phone didnt display it.. and i redialled his number for like SO many times.. called his home once and his sis said he's still sleeping.. and he TOLD me that i could have asked his sister to wake him up.. FOR GOD'S sake, im not that CLOSE with ur sister u noe! and even if i've woke u up right.. when we go out.. u'll COMPLAIN again that you are TIRED! so wad am i suppose to do?

then.. he went out on his own.. STUPID.. i just dunno wad's wrong with him. maybe the problem lies with me? it was so late by the time he woke up.. and my mum cooked dinner for me.. so I would have or MUST eat at home right.. and not forgetting.. it's so fucking late.. wad's there to shop? must rush for that fucking BUS again? and u still can give me attitude.. FINE!

ok.. back to when im sleeping.. think my sis msg-ed me asking me link for free games online.. and i wanted to ask her to FUCK off.. why? tot she's supposed to do WORK at alwin's home? and why is she asking me such stuff? cant she ask her OTHER friends? since she's SO selfish in the first place.. i wont bother to SHARE with her anything? isnt that fair? CALL ME CHILDISH JANE~ but that's me?

last night.. was.. CK's birthday.. went farja hawker to eat.. food was not bad.. but then.. it was SO expensive.. oops.. after that.. we bought a cake for him.. and we kinda spoilt everything as the other group of ppl did the same thing but HID the cake with the KTV ppl.. so.. we were kinda like spoilers? -.-"

and i lost $6 during mahjong session.. was pretty tired.. but then NOT AS TIRED as some ppl..

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beep beep.. boy's having his pms again!!! feeling moody.. but nothing's gonna change his sad sad face.. boo!!! nowadays boy's been saying the wrong things.. or rather hurtful remarks.. he just complained to me that IM GETTING FATTER... and yar.. i just went swimming today.. =( next thing he complained was IM NOT DOLLING MYSELF UP ANYMORE!! wtf.. recently the furthest place we went was.. BUGIS?? to make his specs and all... gosh.. wad has it got to do with me not dolling up? it's not as if im going for a movie or something.. =( it's HURTFUL.. i hate this..

tml's ck's birthday.. and they MIGHT be eating at fajah.. horrible.. hopefully there's mahjong.. else.. i wont go.. BOOP!

went swimming with zj.. and i was freaking late.. reason: hard time tying my bikini~~ it was the first time that i wore a bikini for a swim? hehe!! i look FAT in it though~~ gonna shed that few kgs too... my tummy's growing BIGGER and BIGGER each day..

after swim.. i went for cafe cartel's st lious pork ribs.. hehe! effort wasted.. will try harder! met up with germaine for shopping.. and guess wad? i bought a red belt and a polka dot top from m)phosis.. wanted to buy the dress but then.. gosh.. no money liao.. then i called boy hoping that he can pia down after his dinner to help me "see" the dress.. (cum buy it) hehe!! but then he just told me to buy it straightaway with his card.. haha!

but i just think that the card is giving me lots of probs.. boy thinks that im RELIANT on the card.. i just hate that.. im not that money minded bitch that u see on the streets u noe! sigh.. i think i'll just give him back his card tml in case things get worst.. i HATe this.. boo..

yup.. so i bought another polka dot dress..

and then.. we went to watch ghost game.. kinda not that good for the ending.. but overall.. it was "scary" enough for us.. beep~~

after that.. on the way to the train station.. hehe~ i spotted rings!! pretty pretty rings!! and i bought.. THREE of them at one goal at a fantastic price of 30 bucks! hehe!! original price was 13.90 each.. DISCOUNT for students? hehe!

love retail therapy to the max~ wad's better than shopping besides being loved right? heehee~ but im not feeling love these days.. especially at night.. sigh..

wonder why boy's feeling so stressed up? problems? money problems? sometimes i just feel like giving him one tight slap and tell him that i've got my own fucking problems too but i'm not feeling the "stress" that u are feeling right now? wad's there to be so UPTIGHT about? and why can u stay up till next morning just for ur mahjong sessions but not for me?? mahjong is more important?

but then again.. it's ur OWN body.. ur OWN mind.. ur OWN thinking...everyone's different..

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*eating fruits*

damn.. didnt get to poo lots~~ i've not shitted for like.. 2 days?? it's bad...

adela was drunk last night.. partly my fault.. cos it's my vodka that caused it.. =(

im damn tired.. dunno why.. no matter how much i slept, i just cant wake up feeling alert.. and i broke my own record for not bathing yesterday.. my ass felt so ITCHY that i rushed home to bath... gosh.. i smell so nice...

i think sometimes i should be more accommodating... but i just cant help to just open my mouth when some ppl get on my nerves.. meanie jane will always be meanie..

damn tired.. i cant type well...

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just had dinner with my boy.. swensen's breaded chicken is VERY oily.. but i love the sticky chocolate malt though!

im going CHALET tml~~ for 3 days... hehe!! *excited* will be back on wednesday~ i'll miss my precious boy~~ gave him a little sweet treat just now~ im sure he enjoyed it lots!! haha!!

i just love the little tin can that boy bought for me on friday!!! it was so cute!! and special too!! from chocs.. will post up the pics when im free~~

i just bought this oldnavy tee and top online through a spree!! and this reminds me of my boy!! *the 50 bucks is MINE* haha!!

hmm.. went zouk last night~ before that.. went liquidroom.. it's totally.. yucky IMO.. no space to dance at ALL.. but then.. music is nice.. however.. ambience and crowd was totally.. =(

zouk was boring initially.. hehe~~ i noe ru and jen didnt like it!! but then i love it!! hehe!! i just love this kinda music.. wonder wad's with the sirens - tony tay~

and guess who we saw?? ERWIN LIAN lorz!! haha!! tio stunt manz~ 3d maya lecturer clubbing?? my goodness?? jen ru adela and me were like FINDING him~~ must see how he dance also mahz~~ shocking manz~

dunno if i should bring my camara or not.. dun feel like it though~~ cos it's like a burden manz~ and im just nt so socialble in this sense.. hmm.. im meanie~ hah!

**i just hate some people who treat their bf as sweet as a candy bar but when it comes to family.. damn fucked up! uber selfish ppl dun deserve my things.. so.. IM NOT GOING TO LEND YOU MY THINGS IN THE FUTURE!! wad the hell.. i just hate such people... duhz~ bahz..

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just realised that i've always been updating my blog at 3am onwards!! gosh~~

slept at 0640 this morning~ damn tired can~~ the perfect moment was when i stick the paper gently on the base~ taaa daaa!!! im DONE!! done with COFFEE table book~ really must drink coffeee to finish it manz!!!

later.. i've be doing my reports~ i hope to finish both report by tonight~ then tml can do the script.. i've got 4 hours left.. and im still slacking~ have to go for gana's lesson tml at 9am.. then apply for LOA~ sigh~~ reminds me of my pitiful bucks=(

i shall do finish my mini report plus big report.. for big report's examples... i'll do it tml.. heh!~

YAR!! i slept for like 13 hours TODAY!!!

woke up at 7+.. national day somemore... sigh~ i slept like a log~ and when i woke up, i was having this bad headache.. i think im gonna be really very sick soon~

counting down.. 2 more days before slacking days!! yuppie!! i feel so happy!~~ i feel so happy!!~

muummy was nagging at me again.. sigh~

**im gonna redo my blog during the holidays!! and i mean it lorz~~

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it's 3.23am now!! and i've yet to finish my BOX!! sigh.. because of it.. i had to spend 42 bucks at raffles clinic.. im having tension headache!!! it's horrible.. i think it's because of my sleeping habit? for the past 3 days.. i have only left for.. prolly less than 6 hours? fuck manz~~

thanx dear for accompanying me last night~ or else i would have just KNOCK out..

gonna finish my box by tonight~ tml have to pia marketing report... thurs.. crcm.. fri... TEST!!

gosh.. after law test still got business test~~ OMG!! im damn sick of it.. hopefully it's EASY~

oh yar.. i've to remember to submit my LOA on thurs.. btw.. HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!! smurks~~ it's one more day nearer to holidays!! holidays means.. time for CHIONGING.. SLEEPING... EATING... PLAYING... SENTOSA.. and i forgot SHOPPING!!

yar!!! my boy owes my a women's secret bra~~ gosh!! i've to 10 bucks voucher for it and he's paying the rest~~ hehe!! at least i contributed right!! gonna get a black sexy bra~~ *slurps* caring for my assets.. haha!!

am wearing this VS boyshort now.. feels uber comfy~~~!!~~~ peeps.. must go online buy ok?? haha! it's like so cotton-y... that u dun feel anything? fuck.. brain's gonna shut down.. im starting to crap~

soon's is pings bday.. then wanru~~ haha!!~ im gonna be SUPER duper broke liaoz~~

3 more hours before boy goes to work~ hopefully doreamon isnt there~ hehe!! so that he can talk to me on the phone during working hours~

love him lots!!!

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presentations are horrible! coffee table book is horrible!!

im damn sick of kopi now!! just hate to do that freaking book.. causing me so many many much problems.. but after food.. i'll pia till 7 pm.. meet my boy for dinner and buy my materials..

no more slacking no more slacking!!

i woke up at 1.15 pm today!! scolded my boy for allowing me to sleep SO long!! im suppose to wake up at 12~~ but everything's ok now.. sigh~ why is he so soft hearted!! haha

i woke my boy up at 6.30 today lorz! im such a nice gf right!! pia till late late just to wake him up~ could have slept at 5.30 instead.. but he's always a lousy alarm clock!! haha!! always allowing me to sleep till i want~~ gosh!!!

i just love the ai xin dou hua and the fort minor cd that he gave me last night!! pretty~~ i love him more than ever.. =)

and ps... i'm part of his financial planning!! hehe!! dun bully me or else i'll take the card out for SHOPPING spree!!

hmm

i just realised that there are nice songs in my computer.. haha!! the corrs.. spancill hill..

i really loved that.. it's so calming and everything.. my type lehz~~ haa!!

ok.. im suppose to be doing my report and it's now 10.27am.. there are so many points that i've left out or so.. i think this is just not so me.. will rush it out latest by tonight~ jane loves to do last minute work lehz~

today i've to see shang for my coffee table book.. it's gonna be shitz.. i'll prolly just show her my pictures.. gonna see how she frowns abt it.. =( damn.. i feel so low moral for the first time..

yesterday's law test was freaking difficult.. i'll be lucky if i've passed.. cos i've really crapped every single fucking thing on the paper..

i just realised that my typing speed rocks lorz!!! haha!! i can type damn fast~ *slurps* im a typerholic.. hehe!!

im gonna start to take my pictures for the coffee table book liaoz.. gosh!! and anyone has a xylopone?? i need one~~ (i noe my spelling is wrong)

i miss my boy so much.. and he wont be seeing this post.. cos.. his internet has been CUT!! haha!! he didnt pay his bills.. so.. no more tv and internet provided by starhub!! orbi lar.. but it's mainly my fault.. my bday caused him to be so uber broke~ but i did my part ok!!! i lend him money to tide over this "crucial" period..

* the shaky toy on my table is making me sleepy and dizzy and wadever.. it's not a happy doll at all lorz~ haha!! im only happy when im.. EATING~ weet~ think i'll grab something to eat later.. hopefully nothing goes wrong with my photos and stuff~ I JUST WANNA GET OVER AND DONE WITH EVERYTHING!

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i just realised that all my previous posts are gone!! all from the previous blog skin are gone~~~~!!!!!~!!!!! HOW!! fuck manz!!!! ccb!

im damn pissed just now.. my boy caused it! first. he told me that he bought a bread from the confectionary located just below my house. and it's like.. FREAKING LATE liaoz.. and he still bought the bread.. common sense wil tell u that the bread is not fresh right!!! STUPID!! i mean.. the action is stupid.. not u~

second. he told me that there's this guy who tied his stomach. and i asked him, how like 5 to 6 times.. and he kept replying the same thing.. " tie his stomach lar" wtf! how would i noe tie the stomach is open the stomach and tie it? it's weird right? =( fuck!

im pretty upset right now.. immediately after i put down the phone, he said he's going to bed!!! and i wanted to talk to him so badly.. cant u just apologise and talk to me!!!!!

sigh. i just hate this. my coffee table book sucks. my det sucks. my mlp sucks. i just hate everything! fuck fuck fuck!